Lola and Loulamay

Lola and Loulamay

In memory of

Lola Dalton

2004 - 2024

Lola Dalton

My darling Lola, I love you to bits, you were my world. You meant everything to me and part of me has gone with you.

God Bless you, my darling until we meet again XXX

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My dearest, darling Loligirl - when you left me, it was as if the sunshine in my life had passed behind a cloud - you were my sunshine, and I don't think I will ever stop missing it. I know you loved me too, as I remember the look of Love in your beautiful, mysterious eyes, when you looked into mine. I will never forget it, my darling.
Rocco is a bit more lively now - when you didn't come home on that fateful day in October, at first he didn't eat or drink much and was very clingy, but not so much now But the flat felt so sad and empty - and it still does. I don't think I will ever get over losing you. I just wish that things could be as they used to be, just for one moment in time; I don't feel the same as you had become such a large part of me - the best part.
It is very cold now and the boiler was shut down last Wednesday, as BSW said it was dangerous as it had been installed wrongly. But it has been put right now and Rocco was absolutely terrified when the engineer came in with all his tools, and ran around the flat looking for a place to hide. I remember, in your time you were very different when any tradespeople came, and I had to shut you in the bedroom, to stop you from poking around and playing with their tools! Those were the days - you were so curious about everything. You never seemed scared of anything and had a great love for life..
God Bless you, my dearest Angel and may His light always shine on you. Till we meet in Heaven, all my love, Francesca mum. xxx

Added by Francesca Mum, on 25/01/2025

My beloved Lola - it is now January 5tht and although Christmas and the New Year are finally over, I still miss you and think of you every day : you are the first thing I think of in the morning, and the last thing I think of at night. Photographs of you. Loula and dear Madonna are by my bedside and I give them all a little kiss last thing at night.
So time moves on - it is relentless - it just continues to move on as if nothing has happened. But last year a large part of me just died and receded into the past where it became a memory. You and Ray were such a large part of my life - I was with Ray for thirty five years and I had you for nearly twenty,; Loula and Madonna were her for twelve years each at different times. So that is over half my life that has become a beautiful memory and in the past.
Sometimes I can almost feel your presence: yesterday I was standing by the window in the living room where your little bed is, watching the Ocado van with our delivery, when I glanced down and saw a white feather at my feet on the black floor. At first I thought it was a piece of Rocco's fur, then I saw it was a feather. I don't know where it could have come from, but immediately I thought of you my dearest darling.
God bless you, my sweet, and may He always watch over you. I will always love you. Till we meet in Heaven. Your loving Mum xxx

Added by Francesca Mum, on 05/01/2025

Dear, darling Lola - it is Xmas Eve and I am missing you so very much. Everything seems very, very empty without you, almost pointless. When I think back to the last few weeks of your little life, I keep asking myself why I did not wonder whether there might not be something wrong with you that might put you off food. It did fleetingly cross my mind some months ago, but I dismissed it, as you had always been terribly fussy over food, refusing to eat foods that you did not like. Besides, if it turned out that there was something that was life threatening wrong, it would be too awful to contemplate. I always knew that I could not bear to loose you, and therefore I refused to think of the possibility - I tried to put any thoughts like that out of my mind. I had been giving you appetite boosters for months and I always thought that as cats get older, they lose their appetites ; also you were putting on weight, not losing it. If only I had said something earlier, you might have had the scan earlier and been here today.. I will never forgive myself. I would miss you too much to go on sleeping in the living room on the couch. I remember how you would curl up in my arms and purr and I would tell you how much I loved you, as I gazed into your green eyes that looked as though they held a million secrets and dreamed a million dreams.

God Bless you Darling - I will think of you all this Christmas and pray for you. I will love you for ever. Till we meet in Heaven. Your loving Mum xx

Added by Francesca Mum, on 24/12/2024

My dearest, beautiful girl - it is December already and it is over six weeks since you left me. It seems like forever, and I miss you so much, my little angel. I was very lucky to have had you and Loula in my life and I hope that one day we will all be re-united with dear Ray in the next world. I hoped so much we would have at least one more Christmas together. All I wanted was a little ray of happiness and you all gave that. I gaze sorrowfully through the window at the pouring rain outside - now it is pouring in my heart . The wonderful memories I have of you all brighten my life, and, on the other hand they make me wistful, as I realise what I have lost and that they are all in the past now. Sometimes Rocco reminds me of you - he sleeps on the red blanket that you and I slept on, on the settee. It is by the bed in the bedroom on the ottoman. Yesterday, after Ocado had made their delivery, he was running round the bedroom with the handles of an empty Ocado bag round his neck!. It reminded me of when you did that with an empty Tesco bag! I was terrified you would strangle yourself - I was laughing and crying at the same time! On another occasion, when you were just a kitten, you climbed up to the very top of the sash window in the kitchen! I was afraid you would fall out and my heart was in my mouth! I don't remember how we got you down. Memories are strange things, the way they come and go. I remember, the day after, as I was walking down the street after dark, I saw Ray silhouetted by the kitchen light, standing by the sink, washing up. I have no idea why I remembered just that - I guess I was just happy to see him. God Bless you my little angel - remember I will always, always love you. Till we meet in Heaven. Your loving mum, Francesca xxx.

Added by Francesca Mum, on 07/12/2024

My dearest, sweet Loligirl, I still think of you every day and every night and morning, I will lovingly kiss your little bed, still in its place in the window that you so loved to look out of. Every time I see it there, so empty, my heart will constrict, as I remember all those wonderful years with you and all the joy you brought into my life - you gave meaning to everything. When you turn on the TV now, the presenters go on and on about Christmas - I remember all the wonderful Christmases we had - Ray, you, me, and Loula (when she was alive). The excitement we all felt packing up the presents - how you would love to skid across the floor on the pieces of paper, that I had carefully cut off the roll to wrap up presents. Now, every time I see your things, I will have these beautiful memories, and I can hardly believe that I will never see you again - at least not in this world. Irreplaceable you. I remember how full of life you were - how fearless and curious about everything .Once when a tradesman came about the washing machine, I found you sitting in one of the kitchen cupboards, nosing around all the bottles and tins and you wouldn't get out, so I unthinkingly closed the door! When the tradesman had gone, I was looking everywhere for you! Stupidly, I forgot I had closed the door, and I went berserk with worry, and I even phoned Bev at the vets and told her you must have escaped into the road! I ran out of the house and looked under all the cars parked there. And, dear Ray, ever the calming influence, kept on saying "She couldn't have got out! " Eventually, I opened the cupboard door in the kitchen, and I saw your cheeky little face looking out at me through all the bottles! And THEN I remembered closing it. I was so relieved to see you. I felt stupid! I wish you; Ray and Loula were here now. God Bless you, my sweet angel. I will love you forever. Till we meet in heaven. Mum xxx

Added by Francesca Mum, on 28/11/2024

My darling, sweet Lola - I miss you so very much all the time. The other day I took Rocco to the vet for a check-up, and I saw a gentleman at reception with a tortoiseshell cat and she/he reminded me so much of you that my heart gave a lurch, and my eyes filled with tears. Loligirl darling - I will never be able to say Goodbye to you - I will hold you in my heart and love you forever. I will spend the rest of my life with my beautiful memories of you - those unforgettable nights in the living room, when you would cuddle up to me on the settee and purr in my ear; I thought they would never end, but now they are a cherished memory. You were always the curious one, while Loula was the mischievous one! I found some photographs that Julie took when you were kittens and there is an ever so cute one of you sitting in an empty wastepaper basket, gazing out of it at the world with your wide, enquiring eyes. There are several of both you and Loula sitting on top of the wardrobe, looking down with such a searching look! Your little bed (the one that Julie, Mysti and Va gave you last Christmas) and your pawprint will always be in the window with my tribute to you, and your biscuit bowl, but I am going to put your other little things in the memory box that I had for Loula and you two can share it. You shared so much in life, my darling girl. Oh Loligirl, my beloved Loligirl - the world is not the same without you -one of the best parts and the loveliest is missing. God Bless you, my sweet girl and may he always watch over you. I will love you forever and for eternity. Till we meet in heaven. Francesca Mum xxx

Added by Francesca Mum, on 22/11/2024

My dearest, beloved beautiful Loligirl, - today would have been your twentieth birthday, and dear Loula's, and I awoke with my pillow wet with tears of longing. I went into the living room and seeing your empty bed by the window with your pawprint on a card in it, I remembered everything that had happened, I burst into bitter tears, with my head buried in your little bed. Oh, my darling, I would give anything for just one moment in time, when I could put my arms around you, kiss your furry head and gaze into your mysterious green eyes. It is strange, cats don't often look into one’s eyes, but you did, as if you knew and understood what I was saying and feeling. I miss you so very, very much; this has been the worst year in my life - losing first Ray and then you, in the same year, with only months between you. And my sweet, you died only four days after my eightieth birthday - a birthday that is the worst I have ever had. I will never forget that day on the 23rd of December 2004, when Julie brought you and Loula with Ray and me, home to our flat when you were only six weeks old!! We drove through the quiet, wintery streets with the stars glowing above in the dark skies, and I had the feeling that my life was about to change. I was right - it did and it was because of you two - you brought love and light into my life and everything that had been dark, became joyful. You and Loula played together for hours then, and dear Ray looked after you, as I was at work, but Ray was between jobs. You were up to all manner of tricks, as you can see from the photograph with you both in the fridge - and I was trying to clean it. Another time, when I was trying to clean the kitchen floor, you would chase the mop, often jumping on it and making it impossible to clean. You played plenty of tricks with dear Ray, I remember once when I had come back from work, he said to me indignantly: "She (Loula) never closes drawers, after she has been in them !!!" Everything was now so good with darling Ray and both of you - things that had been like black and white TV, became like colour TV. May God always watch over you and Loula, and God Bless you on this your birthday and always; darling Loligirl, I will always love you and carry you in my heart. Till we meet in Heaven, your loving Mum xxx

Added by Francesca Mum, on 14/11/2024

My darling, sweet, angel baby - on Thursday it will be your birthday - yours and Loula's; You would have been twenty and the nineteen years and ten months that you lived, were the happiest in my life. I remember when you and Loula were small kittens and I had a few problems, I thought "As long as my girls are alright, everything else will be alright" and that is true you know - you two were the most important thing in my life, and then of course, when Loulamay left, you alone were. The song of Cilla's springs to mind " You're my world, you are my my night and day. "And you were - you were always by my side, and now you will always be in my heart.
Now Ray has gone, and you, Loula and Madonna, Rocco and I live alone in the flat. At night, I will look sadly out of the window, where your bed is, and gazing at the dark skies, with their millions of little stars glittering there, I will ask why you have gone, why you have been taken from me like this. I loved you so. I remember, how when you were alive, I used to put my arms around you and kissing your furry head, I would gaze into your eyes that glittered with stars too, and tell you how much I loved you and begged you never to leave me. You would purr gently as if you understood - I'm sure you did, my darling Lola. Now, I put my arms around your empty bed, as my heartfelt tears fall on it.
Your bed and little food tray, will always be left by the window, by a little memorial from me, and your paw print that they put on a card at the vets.Your little casket with your ashes, is by Ray's, with Loulamay's and Madonna's in a corner of the room -- a little shrine to you all.

i think Rocco misses you - he is very quiet now, darling and follows me around the flat, as if he is wondering what is going on. I think he only wanted to play, when he jumped on you! Sometimes, when I am stroking him, he will stick one of his claws into my hand - I think he wants to play. But he spends a lot of time sleeping under the sofa cover!
May God Bless you and Loula , my angel. May He always watch over you both,. Until we meet in Heaven. I will always love you, dearest Lola. Your loving Mum xxxx

Added by Francesca Mum, on 12/11/2024

My angel baby I miss you more than words can say and you will live in my heart forever. I dream of you every night and one day we will be together for always, with Loulamay your lovely sister and Madonna and dear Ray. You were always by my side whatever happened and the day you left me was one of the saddest in my life and I don't know how I can go on without you . Till we meet in heaven, and may God Bless you and watch over you my Angel baby. Love from Francesca our mum. xxx

Added by Francesca Mum on 06/11/2024

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